Do Whatcha Feel Now.

So, despite all the things that I've had to bring myself to deal with lately, I've actually felt more like myself than I've felt in a long time. I'm realizing that coming to peace with things may be hard, and it's hard to see the whole puzzle and not feel that little :sting: of pain, but taking it piece by piece is actually becoming do-able. I find myself in a good mood on most days, and for some reason everything is so damn funny lately. I feel more comfortable in my own skin and care little to none of how other people perceive me. I'm having a good time. I've made some sort of progress. I'm just now grasping that my life will be forever-changing as I grow older, and instead of that scaring me or.. what have you, I'm incredibly excited. It feels good. I look forward to the future, I dream about traveling, I have a freeing feeling that the primitive definition of being successful has melted away in my mind. I look at my dad and his girlfriend, and I'm green with envy just from how much they've seen and experienced. I see their lives as of right now as a giant relaxing sigh of contentment. They're happy where they are. They have the freedom to do whatever they'd like, to travel the world. They've made their peace. There is really nothing else monumental they have to do or anybody they have to take care of, just themselves. I can't wait until I reach that point in my life, I think it will be at that moment I will realize the world is mine to appreciate and explore, to grow old and die in.