eh, fuck.

All in all it was a bad idea to not get any sleep, coffee's giving me the shakes, I just walked outside and it was lovely.

Can't Sleep.

If there weren't someone JUST falling asleep on our livingroom couch, I'd be out there making some coffee for the day. I've been in my room, passing time. My sleep schedule is all messed up now so I thought that I'd just stay awake to fix it. Mmmmmmmm, coffee ::whines::.

Oh well.

Little to no thoughts were shooting around in my head today (well, yesterday). I had a wonderfully lethargic evening. My brain went on vacation! It felt great. I didn't go outside, and that's perfectly fine with me because it was terribly cold today. I had no face to face contact with anyone, and sometimes I really, really love days like that. I'm beginning to think that living alone might be best for me, because there's some days (well, lately it's been most days) I just don't feel comfortable walking around in my own house. I guess that's what I get for moving in with people I hardly know or have anything in common with. It just feels weird sometimes. It's too bad, because I generally love the house itself. It just doesn't feel like it's mine. I own next to nothing in this house, and when I do eventually move out I'll have next to nothing to take with me. It just feels strange. I've been looking on craigslist at new apartments just for kicks! Ekfuhskfshdkfjehuthsekfjsh and this is but ONE of the many things on my mind.

School has been running my life lately, and the funny thing is I'm not doing so well in it. I find myself telling people that I don't have time to do things because I have to write a paper or study for an exam, but when I actually get home to do these things it's at least a good 2 or 3 hours before I actually break down and get shit done! All hail the queen of procrastination. I'm not failing anything, but I'm not doing as well as I could be. My sociology class is making me nervous. I'm not sure how well I'm doing in that.

Other things I'm just at a loss with. There's really not much to say or do, except for me to buck up and move on. And I'm actually doing pretty well with that. I think I'm getting the hang of this.
I can't wait around for answers that will most likely never come, and I can't settle. I'm better than that. I shouldn't be worrying about this stuff right now anyway.

Really debating whether or not I should just lie down and at least TRY to sleep, since I can't go out and get coffee just yet. Hmm, mayyybe.

Pointless.

This computer is like a drug to me.

When you feel like your life is moving slowly, take a minute to stop and think about all the experiences you've had so far, and the people that you've let walk in and out of your life; think about the feelings that you've felt over the years. You've experienced a lot, and you still want more.

::excited::

I want to rent a cabin somewhere in the woods. Open to tag-alongs, inquire within.

Oh, hey, this is just how I feel when I'm sleep deprived. Some moments I'm more optimistic about the future than others.